I’ve officially gained back 4 lbs. since my 10lb. tonsillectomy surgery weight loss (226 lbs.) recorded exactly 2 weeks ago on 1/30/13. I am OK with this. The surgery’s all liquid diet was a fear of mine, a valid fear. I wanted to maintain the weight loss after I was healed. I knew this was not impossible but a long shot knowing my past habits. When I decided to get the surgery, I was very nervous to be forced into a 2 week fast because of my history with feeling the high and euphoric rush of a quick weight loss. During the 2 week recovery, I felt happy when I could tell that outer layer of water weight was gone and I could feel more of my collar and hip bone popping out. I felt happy when I saw the scale drop 2-3 lbs. in a day, knowing very well that it was an unhealthy way to lose weight and difficult to maintain. I told myself not to be happy with this, to fight your euphoria, but it was difficult. It took until this morning to accept the fact that I have gained back 4 of the 10 lbs. I came to terms with it almost immediately after stepping off the scale, I just don’t have the energy anymore to keep beating myself up over the feeling of going backwards instead of forwards. If you feel yourself going backward, stop and re-evaluate. Move forward again as soon as you can. After a couple of weeks of ups and downs in my food choices, I now feel that I have a handle on my workout/movement routine and healthy diet. I’m ready to accept and move on. I’m ready to feel human and healthy again.