I would like to express my extreme gratitude to my readers who have helped me achieve over 10k views in 5 months. I was on vacation for a week and not really posting much over the past month, so when I logged in today I was all smiles!
It has been a very surreal past few months for me. My personal life is in a place I would not have believed if told details 6 months ago. I’m in a wonderful new(ish) relationship with an old flame, I’m in a new living situation I’ve never been in which is pretty awesome, and my sister is getting married in a little over a week with me as Maid of Dishonor. But this is what I’ve been feeling like doing instead of going to the gym…
It’s that horrible spiral I find myself on when my health routine gets interrupted. But these are life’s curve balls that get thrown at you whether you are sick, have little ones, have a full social calendar, or go on vacation and your gym/workout schedule gets pushed to the side. I attempted Yoga while on vacation, but in an environment with lots of bugs and humidity in a cabin with NO AIR CONDITIONING I gave up after 2 days. Then upon return from vacation my boyfriend moves in with me the very next day. Not finding time to get to the gym because I’m hot and exhausted from our road trip and the move makes me realize I’m just coming up with excuses. So I get down on myself. This leads to a week of adjusting to the new living situation with a house in disarray and going back to work for the week. I do have time for the gym if I made an effort, but I’d rather get the house together so it looks presentable than focus on myself making sure I look presentable. Once again I need to change my way of thinking.
I will stop thinking like the photo above. I need to get my priorities back on track, I need to start making time for my own well being, and I need to remind myself it’s not too late. I mentioned in a previous post if you fall off the healthy living wagon for a day, a week, a month, or even a year, it may be difficult to get back on but not impossible. Of course it would be ideal not to fall off the wagon at all, but pshaw, I’m far from leading an ideal life! What I do need is to take my own words of advice and not feel like I’ve permanently messed up my health regiment. Time to get back to making better decisions! It’s something I need to do, and I will.
I will take the feeling of tight jeans, joint pain, and lethargy as a reminder that I need to start moving just a little bit each day instead of feeling depressed and sabotaging myself when I go down the dark path of healthy destruction. I will remind myself that my usual daunting 2-3 hour gym routine doesn’t have to exist. Running for 20 minutes is better than nothing, don’t you remember that amazing feeling you get from the endorphins after a workout!? Believe me, once I get moving, I’m good to go. It’s the getting moving part that I have trouble with, I seem to psych myself out instead of up.
Stupid Newton and his physics laws of motion.
This blog helps keep me accountable for my actions and I cannot thank the blogging community and readers enough for it’s support and outlet for people struggling with body image and health issues their whole life. Writing has always been easier for me than speaking face to face (though I’m definitely pretty open in person too) but it’s when I’m not open in either area when things are probably bad. This blog helps me get out of that dark place and back on track. I suggest anyone thinking about starting a blog should create one as a therapeutic resource on top of any other personal reasons.
So far, It’s worked for me.